"With no intent or motive But behind this emotion, There lies a sensible heart A sensible heart"
May 30th
There's only one thing I hate about you.
You make me feel like I'm not good enough. I know that I'm not ever going to change - at least not in the areas that are so obviously annoying to you, SO I feel as if I'm never going to be good enough. I'll never be that person.
May 31st
I ask who she is We both feign disinterest. Make it casual curiosity. But we both hold in our secret breaths, wondering how this will play out. Will you call my bluff? Will I call yours? Do I want to?
June 6th
Female objectification
Saint? Naked? Red back with dried glue. Too sexual? Too gross?
June 8th
Death and decay is beautiful when it's natural.
I found a baby bird that had fallen from the nest. It had maggots moving beneath the skin, I thought it was still breathing.
Road kill is the worst. For months now I've watched the death of an animal become something more... flat. Pressed into the concrete over and over. Rained on. Just a pelt of something that at one time wasn't flat. Something that was breathing
Escapism. Fantasy as a parallel for everything we're too afraid to face.
June 17th
My crimes are written on your body.
June 18th
On rare occassions, I think two wrongs do make everything right again. Are we even now?
Dear me, I'm taking over. Holding your love ransom until you're able to handle it yourself again. Love is a strong emotion, one I'm beginning to doubt all are capable of, and you're just too weak.
Love is for the brave.
STOP BEING A COWARD!
Words connecting and words tearing apart. Writing people together.
Rule one for a conversation. There is no right answer. No one wins a conversation. Two. When someone is talking to you - stop thinking about what you're going to say in response. Do your best to put yourself in their place. Do your best to really understand what they are saying, and what they aren't saying. Three. Choose better words.
June 22nd
With these words I whisper, I will guard your heart.
now that's why we need notebooks, not to let these black thoughts remain in our self. I'm rather sleepless, lately, and now find my restlessness expressed here in an enchanting true way. "Writing people together" - love it.
My mom doesn't get it. She goes on about how negative my art journals are. "So much negative energy." But I think it's so much better to have that energy in a journal than inside of me. In fact - I'd probably go crazy. It's definitely a survival thing. <3
My deepest apologies that you can relate, but it's also good to know that I'm not alone.
I'm still figuring out how to illustrate that one. "Writing people together." Hm...
Ah, that "negative energy" discussions, I know them well. It's quite analogous to the different kinds of rock music, that are supposed to be melancholic and aggressive - but the people, who listen to it, just chose their own way of compensation and most of them are rather friendly and good-natured.
We do it with these books, I guess. If you read some of your thoughts black on white, it all seems more logical and structured. And often very stupid, so you can heal yourself from mental trash. Writing has a cathartic effect (I think my favorite actress Emma Thompson said that), that's why psychologist sometimes give the advice to start a diary, because there are simply things in your head you just don't want to tell anyone, and the book does not complain
"Writing people together" is actually a very cool topic. I'm just in the mood for contests and stuff gonna compensate it in some ATCs...
I'm rather sleepless, lately, and now find my restlessness expressed here in an enchanting true way.
"Writing people together" - love it.
My mom doesn't get it. She goes on about how negative my art journals are. "So much negative energy." But I think it's so much better to have that energy in a journal than inside of me. In fact - I'd probably go crazy. It's definitely a survival thing. <3
My deepest apologies that you can relate, but it's also good to know that I'm not alone.
I'm still figuring out how to illustrate that one.
"Writing people together." Hm...
We do it with these books, I guess. If you read some of your thoughts black on white, it all seems more logical and structured. And often very stupid, so you can heal yourself from mental trash. Writing has a cathartic effect (I think my favorite actress Emma Thompson said that), that's why psychologist sometimes give the advice to start a diary, because there are simply things in your head you just don't want to tell anyone, and the book does not complain
"Writing people together" is actually a very cool topic. I'm just in the mood for contests and stuff
I think all my bad thoughts come out on my walks.
But that's a good thing.
Better out than in. <3
passive aggressiveness is so lame
I think that's really the closest I'll ever get to writing anything worth reading.